Went shopping after school today and bought two pairs of jeans and a top. :o Okay secretly it's because i was going to meet Mike tonight and wanted to impress, but don't tell anyone. Anyway, he just cancelled on me! Grrrr! He now finishes work at 10 instead of 8.. and now im so bored. It's too late to organise something with someone else and im pissed off now. Friday night spent on the internet! :(
Oh my god. Weird weird night last night. Okay i'll start from the beginning. *makes it all fairytale-like*
On February 15th 2003 I went to a party. It was just a normal house party. I couldn't get drunk as I had just come out of hospital and so was stuck drinking Sunny D. We'd been there a while, and out of the corner of my eye I spotted this tall, dark and very handsome stranger - dressed a as a pimp. It was a tarts and pimps party. You know when you see someone and you KNOW you have to have them? I spent a while exchanging subtle glances before I summoned up the courage to go and talk to him. I had been told by one of his mates that I had no chance with him and he was taken. This obviously wasn't true - we got on on really well and were officially going out by February 19th. Things were good, but unfortunately he broke up with me about 4 months later. It was only 4 months, but this tore me apart because I was really really starting to like him a lot more. Plus his reasons were very unclear. We didnt keep much contact. The odd text message and conversation on msn. I bumped into him in a pub a few months later where he took pleasure in telling me he had had four girlfriends since me. Then came his birthday in December. I sent him a happy birthday text message. He seemed really touched that I had actually remembered. The next day I was at work in Next. It was the day I was going to meet Alex, the guy I was with for about 3 weeks. I heard a voice calling my name, turned around and saw Mike (that's his name :P) standing there. He gave me a massive hug and we talked for a bit. Still got on really well. He had changed though. His fingers were covered in gold rings and he wore a baseball cap. He told me he had been in a lot of fights and thrown out of clubs and things. I wasn't too sure about this, but the attraction was still there. I felt I could never really make it work with Alex after seeing Mike that day. Last night I came on msn and was surprised to see Mike online. He never comes online. We got talking and he was flirting really badly, and I was flirting back a little bit. He said he had been thinking about me a lot, he missed me, and really regreted breaking up with me. This is so unlike him, to ever admit to doing something wrong. So it looks like he wants to get back together. We going to meet up this week and see how it goes. I know I still like him but i'd make a few changes... he needs to stop getting into fights. But that's the end of my story for now. Not that amazing, but i'm really excited! *swoons*
Halloo! Jeez.. it's been so long. I have just been too lazy to do anything to this, in all honesty, but i'm going to get back into the swing of things. Had a good Christmas and New Year although they were very quiet. The only other major thing thats been happening is my mock exams this week. I finished them yesterday. It was literally every hour of the week except monday. Grr. I temporarily had a boyfriend for about 3 weeks, before he decided our personalities clashed and I just prefered the single life! I've got this weekend off work and shitloads of coursework to do. Argh. Found out last night I might have polycystic ovaries. Hmph. I also have chronic fatigue syndrome. :/ Bloody health! Saw Lord Of The Rings last night with Dad. It was soo good, except for it's many endings, and me sitting there about to wet myself because i'd drank a huge cup of coke. Anyway, I just woke up. I'm going to have a bath now.
Oh.. and why does my blog look different? It's totally ruined my style! 8)
Went to see Metallica last night. Today I CANNOT move. Bloody mosh pits hehe. It was alright. Metallica are a bit samey to me.. i'd much rather see some cheese, like Manowar. :p I only went as my brother wanted to go really badly. It wasn't really bad though.
We're getting a team together at college to do a sponsored 26 mile walk for breast cancer in May (our head of 6th form's wife is dying of it). Apparently it's a huge event and loads of celebrities to it. There is a limit to the number of people who can do it, and it's so popular you actually have to fight to get on it! Oh, and you get to decorate your bra! :D (yes, you walk it in your bra!)
I am so fucking knackered! We went to the Agincourt (some rock club) again last night. It was Simon and Dan's 18th, and also Ryan was back from Uni and went to celebrate his 21st! Had a bloody good time. Spent most of the night dirty dancing with Ryan and 4 of his mates haha. Oh and he got a few birthday kisses. :shy: Hehe. It's weird, I never get that much male attention, but I wasn't complaining! When we got out, we wandered around for about an hour trying to get a taxi in the freezing cold, and so everyone got back to Matt's a bit pissed off. :P I got his brother's bed again. Hehe. Anyway, I had to work today. It was the slowest 4 hours of my life, but it was only 4 hours so I can't complain. Mum is really pissing me off. She thinks i'm really behind at school and that I don't do any work. She doesn't know ANYTHING. If anything, she is the one stressing me out, and I feel like everything is on top of me: - mum whinging about school - driving test next week and my instructor now dislikes my drive AND my manouvers - head prefect stuff. got the head of my house on my back about decorating the common room. my teachers don't like me missing lessons to do it either. - health. my scan results will be back soon. worried about that. - work! i don't have a free fucking day EVER. :P - chrismas. i have no money and i still need to do my shopping.
Anyway, that's enough whining. Had to get that out! I'm sitting here comforting myself with an orange Penguin bar, some spicey tomato Wheat Crunchies and a large pot of yoghurt.
Just got back from the scan. It wasn't as bad as I expected.. they just stuck a probe up there and took some pictures. Wasn't *too* embarrassing. Get my results next week. eek. Did a bit of xmas shopping.. decided to take the whole day off school. Oh and some bloke wolf whistled at me on the way back to the car park! grr! Never wearing a skirt again! Gonna meet up with Simon for a drink today as it's his 18th birthday! I got him a beer with a mexican hat and a little shot glass with some strange spirit. :P It's really cute. I then have work at 5. Great! I can't stop listening to Ultrabeat -Pretty Green Eyes. It's so commerical and yucky but I always wanna dance to it! Metallica tickets just came. woo!
Oops. Been neglecting this a bit lately. Well all this week it's been talk about the parties at school.. haven't spoken to Garreth much since hehe. The dancing was so awful. It was the whole thrusting, grinding, hands on arses thang. :oops: Went to Lazerquest for my friend's birthday the day before yesterday. Chris is the manager there and we bumped into Ant.. and now Luke works there... so it seemed that everyone was there! Chris let me in for free but cos everyone else was there we couldn't spend much time together. :P Oh and I found out they have a secret code thing for me! After my nickname on the lazerqust tag thing, they out 'mmpft' or something. I later found out it's the spelling of the sound they make for a fit girl. :oops: Ant and me decided to go to the cinema afterwards to see Love Actually, which is a bloody good film! Oh, and he drove me home which was sweet. I met up with Chris today.. we also went to the cinema haha.. we saw Intolerable Cruelty and I can't say I know what it was about if you get my drift. ;) Things got a wee bit friendly!
I just got back and im quiyte drunk! The party was sooo good. It was like a little rave and everyone was going mental! And to top off the evening.. some people from my school just drove into the back of our car! How embarrassinhg! :cry:
Muse was fucking awesome!! I can't even describe how good they were! Just make sure you go and see them just once in your life. :D That was my third time. It was my brother's first gig and he loved it. Anyway, last night it was Sean's 18th birthday party. I only went because I heard not many people were going and I felt bad for him! If it was my party and I had paid for a hall and disco I would be quite upset! But yeah, it turned out quite a few people went, and I had a bloody good time! :) I'm going to the same place tonight for my friend Nat's 18th birthday party. It's a joint one with her cousin who goes to another school. I think this place can only hold about 120 people, but Nat has invited about 91 and her cousin is in the seventies! Both my exes are gonna be there. Hehe. I so need to pull. :P Oh, and i've been invited to an Ann Summers party with some of the girls in my year. They're the 'popular' lot. Hmm. They told me last night I was one of them haha.. and one of their boyfriends (who I used to HATE) told me he thought I was really fit, but not to tell anyone because he has a girlfriend. *w00t*
Ohh and my old nextdoor neighbour Sarah came down to see me today. She moved up to Cheshire when I was still in primary school which was an extremely traumatic experience! We still keep in contact. She was down here to babysit for someone so she met me before work and we went for a Starbucks. Twas nice. :D
Anyway, this is all getting really jumbled up now. Oh, i'm sitting here in my little skirt and stripey top ready to go. My dad told me I look like some 1920's French pinup hehe.
Well I had most of today off so I went shopping with my mum! I got a ridiculously short black flicky out skirt, and a less revealing black and white stripey top. I think you can either show arse or boobs.. but never both, so i'm going for arse. ;) I also got a pair of suede slouchy boots from the kid's section. They don't look childish though and were a lot cheaper. Oh what a blessing having small feet! The reason for all this shopping is that I am going to my friend's 18th birthday party on Saturday and it's a black and white theme. Oh, and my ex is going to be there so the idea is to look as sexy as possible. I'm not trying to win him back.. I just want him to see what he's missing. ;)
I could not get up for school this morning for love nor money! Well.. I did in the end. Half an hour late though. I then slept for a few hours in the common room, before deciding I really didn't feel very well, and skipped Media Studies to go dildo shopping with Simon and get my frappachino fix. I'm such a rebel. :wink:
I was all tucked up in bed by 8.30 last night, stuffing my face with junk food and listening to Faithless. It's now 10.30am and I just got up.. my hair is all stuck to the side of my face and I can't talk.. you know that funny early morning voice? :S I'm sure I had a really interesting dream last night but I can't remember what it was. Hmm.. i've got work at 1. I'm doing replen for 4 hours which i've never done before. Fun fun fun! I wish I had more interesting stuff to write on this blog.. it's always the same thing: [i]school school school, work work work, ill ill ill... [/i] when it should be [i]babble babble, bitch bitch, rebel rebel, party party, sex sex sex...[/i] :wink: Only joking. Ish. (I don't really like Manson!)
I had my mock driving test this morning and failed DISMALLY. But then again I wasn't allowed to pass. ;) I felt so sick and nervous all morning but when I actually got in the car it was a whole different ball game and wasn't as bad as I expected. Test in 3 weeks! I then had to work for 4 hours.. it wasn't too bad but i'm so tired! Couldn't keep my eyes open. Did a bit of Xmas shopping too.. except it was more me buying my own present because it was the last one, for my grandparents to give me haha! It was a digital watch with little diamond thingies in it. Quite swanky! They were pleased they had one less person to buy for. Oh, and stopped off at Starbucks for a strawberries and cream frappachino! I'm so addicted and it's the perfect cure for a stressful day! Seeing Muse on Thursday! I've got their new album on full blast to get in the mood. ;) EDIT: This is for whoever wanted more pics of me. :P [url=]http://www.freewebs.com/idiot...[/url]
I know it's been a few days but i've been feeling so lazy! In the end I did go to Havok.. met up with Chris and his mates, got some photos and had a great time with much alcohol consumed! :) Might be meeting up with Chris later this week. ;) Ive been out for driving practices a lot this week as I have my mock test tomorrow morning. I am shitting myself! Had work last night from 5-9 because they were turning the Christmas lights on in the high street. The roof of my shop is the roof of the shopping centre and they were setting off fireworks on the top! It sounded like the place was being nuked! Just took the pikey test... my mum was watching me and I had to lie on a few questions so I didnt embarrass myself..so I was 23% pikey. I just did it again and i'm actually 27.9% pikey. 8) If anyone else wants a go i'll email it to them. Oh and surprise surprise! I'm feeling a bit crap again! Ive got loads of ulcers and a sore tongue and throat. Ah well! :)
Mm i'm in a Bikini Kill mood. :p I'm at school though so I can't really get away with singing it loudly! I only have two lessons today. Now i'm in the IT suite thinking about the possibility of maybe doing some Media studies! Paul is currently sitting next to me sorting out the prefects into which houses they are in so that we can make a rota for monitoring. Louise is sitting next to me being a dick because she won't do more than one day a week... despite the fact we don't have enough prefects! She thinks the seniors should do the most even though we've got more work to do already. Fucking dick.
I just got back from the party. I intended on leaving at about 9am, but this actually turned out to be about 12.30! It was quite a good party, except I didn't really know anyone. Had a little rave going on in the kitchen. Oh and about 50 gatecrashers turned up and stole some alcohol, but we got rid of them! I was so tired from the travelling though and by about 3am I was drifting in and out of sleep on the sofa and ended up crashing in the double bed upstairs. Two hours later I hear a knock and a little voicing coming from Matt - "can I crash with you too pleeease?" so I woke up next to Mattatattat!
I've got to have a mock driving test on saturday. :?
Oh and i'm in love with Manowar all over again! :D
Well mum and I started our Christmas shopping today in Woking. I also got a red dressing gown with paw prints and PJ bottoms from Primark! Haha.. so cheap and cheerful! :D
I think dad is gonna take me for a drive in a minute. eek! I've drugged myself up on the Kalms like my instructer told me to do.
Tonight I think i'm going to go to a party 70 miles away in Letchworth. It's going to cost me about £24 though! :s Ah well.
Okay I just got home, from the most SHITTY POOEY driving lesson in the history of ALL SHITTY POOEY driving lessons, causing me to burst into tears on my instructor for the 3rd fucking time! ARGH!
Okay I was just starting to feel better and now my mum came in just this second to tell me the date of my ultrasound scan. Great. But it gets worse. She also said that they're gonna do it from the INSIDE... involving some complete stranger sticking some device UP my you know what. I'm gonna cry again. :cry:
I know I haven't updated in a few days, bothing all that interesting has happened! Oh.. I went clothes shopping which is very unusual for me, and not very interesting for you! Right now I'm still at school. For once I have actually worked really hard today, but now it's 1:30pm and as i'm on here, it must have worn off. :/ Just got out of a meeting for this new Senior Prefect role I have been given. It bascially means i'm like the teachers now, except obviously I don't teach! ;) It's gonna be loads of work.. like supervising common rooms and giving out cautions etc but there's a few perks too... hmm.. like skipping to the front of the dinner queue. :P At 3:40pm I have a driving lesson and i'm getting picked up from school. I hate getting picked up from here, because everyone is watching, and I know i'll bugger it up! Anyway, this is a whole 2 hours on maneouvers (fun fun fun!) which is the only thing i'm really having problems with right now! I have until December 17th to sort it out! Anyway i'm kinda nervous, and it will probably end in tears. :P Well now Adam has called it off, I now have a whole free weekend. :o I think I *may* go to Letchworth about 70 miles away for this massive party my ex is having. I haven't actually been up there in the whole 3 years i've known that lot, so now i've got some time I may take up the chance! I might post again later...
I wish I could write a more positive blog, but right now I feel like crap. After last night I actually can't move a muscle. I feel sick and dizzy all over again. Ollie and Mum have been yelling at each other all night and it's doing my bloody head in. They've both been yelling at me. I've had mum on my back about my schoolwork. I'm so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. I thought I had come round to the whole Adam situation and now i'm liking him more and more and i'm feeling worse. Even *jealous* of his last girlfriend, who happened to live in Ireland. I know it's really silly but I can't help it. I hope we talk tonight. Except NTL is pissing me off and keeps disconnecting me. It's meant to be BROADBAND for fucks sake. Anyway, when I finally get connected again, I can post this.. but now I s'pose I should get on with some work. This will involve typing out the whole photography essay again because the disc it is saved on is broken, and last time I put it in the computer, the metal bit got stuck inside when I pulled it out. I wish I had someone to cheer me up. All I have now is the sound of Muse.
I am stuffing my face with loads and loads of chocolate and crisps and coke. And I don't care. I am going to go to the gym for the first time ever in my whole entire life and get rid of it all. And then i'm going to have a Burger King and go down to the pub. Mmm. Comforting food.
